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Thursday, December 07, 2006

The two faces of me

You know what I realized today? I'm depressed.

My house is a mess, I'm forgetting appointments right and left, I'm up 5 lbs. in less than a month, I'm tired, and I feel like my kids are sucking the life right out of me. Quite a contrast to Monday's post. It's not like anything specific has happened in that time either. I'm just feeling very edgy today.

Just 6 weeks ago I was feeling pretty good about things, feeling like I had all my little ducks in a row. Then, about 3 weeks ago, Queenie got sick and then I got sick and in the short span of a week, those damned anarchist ducks staged a riot. At this point, I'm not even sure where all of my ducks are, but they sure as hell aren't in line. There may be a couple in line for Starbucks, but we need the caffeine. *sigh*

The house being a mess is both a cause and a symptom of my depression. I can't stand having messes everywhere. It is truly making me feel nutso edgy. Therefore, causing me to feel stressed and depressed. But, I can't seem to get off of my ass to do any real damage control, which means that it is also a symptom that I am depressed.

The kids are completely.out.of.control. And it's bound to get worse because we are closing in on winter vacation, which means that they are going to be home all day, storing up energy and boredom and saving it for when I get home from work. Yay.

Admitting I have a problem is the first step, right?

posted by *******DIANE******* @ 9:15 AM

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